I've been doing some soul-searching lately -- come on? I'm neurotic and md, of course I've been soul-searching...for, like, my entire life -- and I've come to the realization that a blog just may be a good source of release and therapy for me. Mostly because I cannot afford nor do I want to pay for a therapist just so I can do their job for them. But it doesn't take a genius (like me!) to figure out that my personal combination of neuro-napalm is quite detrimental to inter-personal relationships. ...That means it makes my fiance hate me sometimes, brainiac.
So I thought 'what can I do to stop myself from pushing him away and missing out on some great opportunities in life?' (Oh! Oh! I know! Pick me!) Well for starters, I can keep my mouth shut and not say every stupid, lousy, nagging damned thing I think of when I'm talking to him. I need to trust, and back off, and not jump to horrible conclusions when he takes some time to hang out with friends on the weekend. And I need some kind of outlet for all my bad mojo. 'Like a blog?' Ding! You got it, want a cookie?
So join me (daily? weekly?) -- or not, I don't care -- in my adventures dealing with craziness, and trying to maintain communication and happiness in my (hopefully, if I don't f--- it up)
...and to answer the question -- the odds of this blog lasting more than a week aren't very high. I am ADD, afterall! But, hey! We can try!
Dear Jess-E-ca,
ReplyDeleteI love you.
And that was fun to read.
...just sayin.